EnnuiI don't know how to say this
so that you might understand
that the key I bear is broken
and the lock is filled with sand;
I knock but no one answers;
there are shadows on the blinds.
I recall the bell that rang here, once,
but cannot hear the chimes.
And the preacher sings in Latin
but these ears were made for brail;
I spin myself into a top,
retrace my dizzy trail.
Time that wholesome melody
that once I strived to woo,
across the marble courtyard
where the dance was always new
has shrugged my ill advances,
and has taken to the fields
where She hides between the poplar trees,
her countenance concealed.
All the ground is tissue
and my feet are made of stone;
each heavy, grinding step I take
exposes pearly bones.
The path that leads me upward
is the path I'm listing down;
though thought precludes the masterpiece,
my want has nothing found
but the steps that trace the pulpit
where my zeal has plainly paled;
and the pun, the point, the closing bit
is webbed in dusty veils.
Spatially ConfusedI am spatially confused
a special frustration of time and of place
here, or maybe there,
a length of ribbon, gauzy blue
or black in ink
slinks around the post-holes of the past
I am lost in my periphery
a riddle born in the imperfect
perfected in the preterite
geographically inclined to find
Synaesthesia Linen-scented candles. Hourglasses, dusty and exhausted. The sound of loose change in a denim pocket. Black cherries. Blue opals. The roll of the cat's shoulders as he creeps around the corner; his complacently proud expression as his paw strikes the fly in mid-air, sends it careening down to the ground like a thwarted warplane. Mismatched buttons. Newsprint so new that it smudges.
Things I have to remember.
The list of things to forget is growing small.
Tide pools and sand dollars. The train that went roaring down the tracks, great and heaving, in the distance as I slept, in my childhood. Bike races and Hide-and-Go-Seek. Playing marbles on a sticky summer day. Leaves changing color. Water on the windshield.
Things I remember not to forget.
The list of things to